Everyone seems to be obsessed about weight. Too skinny too fat…. I wonder where all these came from. When did weight became so closely associated with beauty?

It’s funny you know, from what the media and my family said, I should be dieting my ass off right now. It’s not like I don’t want to, I really do want to lose weight. But sometimes I wonder, what for? To look good in clothes? To be healthy? To be happy? Those reasons just sound a little…bullshit to me. Being thin doesn’t make you look good in clothes, sure it makes it easier for you to look good but trust me, I’ve seen a lot of ‘thin’ people who look horrid. Healthy? It’s not a guarantee. You can be fat and be healthy (Really. I can go on about this but I don’t want to). To be happy? Really? You kidding me right?

Does it make me a hypocrite if I said I really want to lose weight? I still don’t know why I want to do it though, I think mostly because I want to look better. I don’t know whether it would make me healthy, I don’t know whether I would be happier about myself that way. As for being able to wear things and look better in it…possibly. My style is still evolving though. At the moment I’m into the whole casual, basic style. Last year was dressier and trying out crazy stuff. But that’s the fun isn’t it? Always trying out new thing.

I don’t know how long this would last, my discipline is not exactly the best. I know I should not even be thinking about this, it’s nearing the exams after all (Oh God, the EXAMS. Don’t get me started on THAT). I know that once I get back to Indo I want to go gym everyday and really run instead of just brisk walking like I usually do. I don’t know, probably know I can just cut down on food I guess. Eat more veggies, it’s good for the brains (?).

So…wish me..luck?